Mind over Matter

I've always wanted to write. Never had the patience or the motivation to ever do it. Frankly dont know why I wanted to do it or why I am doing it. But enough of the background bore.

I am one of the over 6 billion not so different "humans" infesting this rock. Not very different from any other specimen. I agree with Smith, we are almost viruses. Don't think we serve any more purpose than converting all we know into one huge garbage dump. Within about 10,000 years we managed to do what the dinosaurs couldn't do in over 200 million years. Not talking about the wheel here.

Gives you a reason to ponder why the hell do we try to simplify our lives so much. All the crazy and the sane inventions till date. Do they make our lives simpler? easier? happier? I still enjoy sleeping late. An art that is just one among the infinite extinct things. Envy the dogs when they get to sleep while i slog it out all the time. Wonder what the old monkeys did when they got bored of eating sleeping and getting out of a prey's way. Somehow we seem to be doing way more things than necessary. Slogging your ass off seems to be the order of the day for most non millionaires and quite a few of them for that matter. Life does suck for a lot of people.

Would be nice to get away from it all. All the little and the huge hassles of life. Just be magically transported somewhere else. Die maybe? If all of us are gonna die someday after living a painful life, why not die today and skip the pain. Be an optimist you'll get something better on the other side. Heaven as people say. Why is it so bad to die? What is good and bad for that matter? Too many questions too many answers. Tell anyone you dont believe in good and bad and atleast half of them will agree with you. But then good is what most people around accept and bad is everything else. I swear, this definition has worked out perfectly for me. That is why I dont steal what I like, kill what I dont like or laugh in a temple at the so many who respect dead metal or stone rather than themselves or their kind. God? Everyone believes in Him/Her. Not being sexist here. Few have ever really sensed it but then the previous generation always manages to brainwash the next on this topic and a bunch of other taboo ones for all of recorded history. Human nature I guess. Why does God have to exist? Why cant people blame and thank random probability for all of their illusions and beliefs? Why are most people brainwashed into being fanatics about this. Maybe god just created us for entertainment and some pervert is just sitting there watching the show- comedy, tragedy, stupidity, porn and all the other bullshit. I mean the soap opera with or without commercials.

Every single one of our thoughts and actions is a result of constant brainwash by the society, the system of education, our elders and our peers. Simple reason why all humans think alike in a general way. Everyone is taught to do just that. It is the process of converting any anomoly into a sheep in the guise of a wolf. Each one of us is unique just like everyone else. I am egoistic ain't I? But then when most people believe that God (the perfect one) made us in an image of him, then imagine how egoistic everyone else is. Of course no one is perfect. Perfection is just a concept. To me perfection is satisfaction. Not achieving anything close to either of those. Even if I did achieve all that I wanted then what would I do with it all. Most probably get bored. In which case I wanna be on an infinite journey to reach an arch which keeps getting farther as I get close to it. Is the journey worth the journey, leave alone the destination which I may never get to? Come to think of it do I have a choice at all? A free world is a myth. A free will is just your imagination. If you dont know your will aint free you aint gonna try to free it.